If I hold this from you any longer I will begin to hate myself more than I hate what I have to tell you. This is not fair that I’ve put myself in this situation and couldn’t sleep with the fact that some days have been too good to be true. I will find that everything we have been through is the greatness to remember that its gonna be over and if things don’t change afterwards then I know that I have one of the greatest things to hold on to “you”. WARNING: We are not ready for what I have to say so now I see that I will just keep it to myself and wait until the time is right and I have the strength enough tell you. Gotta make it after all even though this could tear us apart and you will find that I was never worht it. My worth deprciates every second I spend to find that I am fallin deeper in love with you and I am growing wary from this blindness that is taking me from us. Never had I pushed so hard to love to find out that I did this to myself. Moving to fast to find out that more than she cried that day, and I think that I have found the key ingredient to life, “emotion” passed for millions of years and evolved in to expression of faliure and self worth making us understand that we must by pass all of this to simply forget.
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What I feel for you is really beginning to make me grow, show and glow with every bit of feeling that you send through me. Repossesing my mind with your world is over whelming, so then I just sail in through you. In hopes that love letters and broken hearts never burn at the same rate. Two moves and now this knight feels like a king, been riding around for so long that she has been unseen a friend unknown to me forever hiding from me that she is my queen but for this I will not hide one tear of expression and emotion because if I do I hope to not mislead you. Open minds and loveless meanings show that through this time we going to make jokes of those that are ignorant to us…let em see us baby
And if I could ever blow away the tears with my words, I would make sure that I could inhale all of the hurt that you have heard. As your friend all I can do is try to understand that this tough girl front is something that I will never comprehend. I can see that from this view all purpose seems hopeful but for you I try not to remain lost. So I question this preception and ask yet another question just be denied and blocked away from you. As my friend you are becoming my family so that means my pockets over flow with who I feel I should look after. Raw emotion and all I am doing is coasting, finding undertones to see where we stand because this firewall just seems to miss place me again, so I die turning the ashes to the wind and trying to find that first breath to ask these questions to help you breath easy because you are truly my friend.
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And If I could ever hold the stars down, just for a whisper. I whimper at the sight of the elixer flowing from your body mixing with mine in due time seems she would find lively hood in somebody else. Love poems written on the hearts walls, match the scratches living inside these pathways division. Is this living, couldn’t find you because I am trippin off the hallucinating drugs that I am sippin, your sex. Damn babe you leave me vexed, cursed by my angels and demons off what they are telling feeling guilt because I stand against both. My addiction leaves me hoaxed, blinded by the words that you wrote and left before my eyes and now I soak because I sweat from crying. Drowning from the fire that is burning. Truth comes in ways of friendship and enemies, no real truth but I am speaking about us and now we think that everything we do is out of lust, naw this is the raw love just driven by the trust of holding onto this pure addiction…I have found you, and yet I choose to wonder…
its been too long since ive been on tumblr…i miss everything about it. i need my laptop back i dont know what i am going to do. waiting on a new one…whats good with everyone?
i think the last time i was on was my birthday. thanks to everyone that sent wishes. i hate having to not be able to read any replies or reblogs. i havent fully disappeared still on facebook and AIM through my blackberry (you know how to get to me)
what makes things bad i dont know if i lost any followers or gained any sonce ive been on…whats up everyone?
lately ive just been chillin, finished my last day of school for the year yesterday and just been chillin and smoking as usual…who knows what people think of me now since they saw my usual self at the school. got them trippin, i am one of few that drive but everyday i get out with a gang of smoke and people that be on their shit. good grades and good weed so what do they have to complain about? nothing because they have nothing to say. i been out everyday and night do what is best for me to do. working on getting a job for the summer and making things happen. i might be having a string of parties for the summer who knows what i am going to do.
tonight, smoke out at the homegirl house…coming through with hella people and blunts, ima make everyone happy that i came by. getting to see people that i hadnt in a while, and meeting new ones. we keeping shit pushing over here. everything been good…except for me getting a nearly fat ass speeding ticket in ladue area. im always speeding and this the second time of them catching me (gotta focus)…bran keep telling me to drive high but i dont want to seem to listen but i will get it together soon.
time to get ready for this party, so i will have to see you next time…anyone can hit me anytime…
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someone get at me on AIM…im bored with these niggas (at the music is nice)
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